IM DIFFERENT, FROM THE REST (:

I feel motivated.

2011-09-27T03:46:00.002+08:00

Isolation was nice.
I'm gonna be happy from now on.
I'm just gonna smile and look towards the future.
Whatever bad things that is going to happen, well come.
Hit me, I'm ready.
God is creating a better plan for me right now.
Susah sekarang, senang kemudian.

Watch me.

One last.

2011-09-27T01:19:00.001+08:00

Stage 4,5,6.

Why.

2011-09-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

Dear god.
I have one request from you.
Please decrease my level of envy and please, stop making me expect too much.
Cause, with expectation comes disappointment.

And oh, Happy 3rd Monthsary, Girlfriend.

This.

2011-09-25T12:26:00.002+08:00

I don't know what you did boy, but you had it.
And I've been hooked ever since!

Ain't no other man can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
You're the kind of guy, a girl finds in a blue moon
You got soul, you got class, you got style with your bad ass

Ain't no other man, it's true
Ain't no other man but you. ;)

Whenever I think of your face
When everything's going my way
& I'm having one of those days
When everything falls into place
You've always been right by my side
and I trust you with all of my life
If you're ever in need of me,
I will run, to you, always. ♥

You tell me to go, I start walking out
But we both know, what we're all about
We fuss, fight and scream
And it's all because of love
But you and I both know
We ain't never giving up

Everytime I try to leave, something tells me turn around
Cuz how could I ever leave the only one that holds me down? ♥

Not gonna analyze or try to fight it
Don't even care if it makes no sense at all
Because with you, I can fly. :)

Nothing brings me down, when you're around
The world just disappears, when you're here
When things get messed up, you lift my head up
And I get lost in the clouds
There's no sense of time with you and I,
Lke zero gravity. ♥

What you got, boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung up, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind

Because your love, your love
Your love is my drug. :)

Control my mind, capture my soul
Okay you're right, just let it go
Okay you got it, it's in the can
Before I played it, you knew my hand
You could turn a free throw to a goal
Boy you got the peep hole to my soul

You see right through me,
how do you do that shit?

You've been there from the start fer me,
And your love's always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.

I give my heart,
'Cause nothing can compare in this world to you. ♥

Constantly, you just played through my mind like a symphony.
There's no way to describe what you do to me,
You just do to me, what you do. ♥

They say that nothing can beat the first love.
But damn, I'll let you know, this man right here,
He whacked the hell out of it fer me. ♥

Love you right down to every inch of fibre I have left in me, Abdul Hakim.

I'm so totally completely eyepopping seriously groundbreaking passionately deliciously in love with him. ♥

I'll be the vodka and you'll be the chaser.

I give you everything that I am,
I'm handing over everything that I got.
Cuz I wanna have a really true love,
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up. ♥

:(

2011-09-25T12:20:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU, I REALLY DO.
I WANT YOU, THE OLD YOU.
IM SORRY THAT I CHANGED.
BUT I CANT BRING MYSELF TO ACCEPT THE NEW YOU.
IT HURTS.
I'LL ONLY BE BETTER IF YOU SHOW ME YOU'RE BETTER.
BUT THING IS, NONE OF US WANT TO DO THAT.
I GUESS THATS THE CAPACITY OF MY LOVE.
IM SORRY.
ITS GONNA BE HARD TO GET OVER YOU, US. :(
BUT I'LL TRY.
BUT RIGHT NOW, IM STILL LOVING YOU :(

GAME.

2011-09-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

I FUCKING GIVE UP.
:'(

Haish.

2011-09-23T13:16:00.003+08:00

All I want is to feel loved.
To be consoled when I'm insecure.
To feel special when I know I'm not.
To feel needed.
To feel that someone is really afraid of losing me.
To sometimes feel like there is actually someone that put in effort to make me feel better when I'm sulking at them.
Sometimes, when I try to drop that tough facade and be vulnerable, there will be no hands to pick me up.
I want to have hands to catch my fall during my vunerable times.
I'm sad, disappointed.
But I'm not going to blame anyone for this, its my fault for wanting to feel wanted.
What's the point anyway?

Nurafiza Abdullah

2011-09-19T22:56:00.005+08:00

Love is the sweetest joy and the deepest pain.

What is love? Why do we need to love? How to love?

Simple questions with complicated answers.

But here I am, thanking god, that I've already found someone to go on a journey to answer these question with me. To feel the sweetest joy of love, and also to feel the deepest pain together.

Nurafiza Abdullah, this is for you.

That girl in the picture above is Nurafiza Bte Abdullah.
My girlfriend.
My future wife.
Mother to my future kids.
That's her, the one I'm in a relationship with.
The one I adore.
The one I like.
The one I will do anything for.
The one I love.

Being at sea and away from Singapore for a year made me realised that I was lonely.

I thought living the life of player was my calling, thought it was the thing I'm supposed to do in this life of mine. But I was wrong, I was lonely.When I came back home after that one year, I told myself that I'll settle down a get myself something real. Never in a million years I thought that that Girl will be you.

But here we are baby, 3 months into our relationship.
Here we are, madly in love with each other.
Here we are, trying to spend every possible time together.
Here we are, screaming, fighting, loving, making out with each other all in the name of Love.
I know we are just starting out, but this thing we have going on here, feels so right.
You're like the missing piece in my puzzle, for I've always felt empty deep down.
You fill up that void in my heart, and I thank you so much for that.
We may have loved others before this, but baby, nothing can compare.
I had my fair share of playing games and you, you made me stop the game.
I know this is nothing compared to others talking about someone they love, but I'm really rusty right now and I've always have this problem of expressing myself.

Happy 3rd Month soon Baby.
This may sound cliche, but baby,
You're so one in a million.

I love you, Nurafiza Abdullah.
Cause its just you and me against the world.
Dont let go.

Problem Solver.

2011-02-02T02:50:00.004+08:00

We have problems.
Everyday.
Everytime
But.

Whatever happens.
Anytime.
Anywhere.

Just remember to do the

CREEP! ^^v

Like Falling Stars.

2011-02-01T01:07:00.006+08:00

Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out
Burn like crashing cars
I'll never get over you
Cause you are so
beautiful

The Weekends.

2011-01-30T21:16:00.005+08:00

Weekends = awesome.

Green Hornet.
Woodlands Girl.
Long Walk.
New Beginning.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.

I guess its time, finally.
To tell the parents,
something which should have been told 9 months ago.
Goodluck kim. (:

Social life have been on a pause for the past couple of weeks due to work. -.-
Its about time, I quit.

3 more months to being 2 years single.
Its about time, to get a proper girl and stop breaking hearts.

I need a proper hobby.
Its about time, I ________.

I always talk and no action.
Its about time, I take it.

imy. and that sweet strawberry scent of yours.

The heartquake

2011-01-28T01:01:00.006+08:00

Look at the picture above.
Yeah, thats the face of my heart. Problems are never ending this days huh.
Karma really got me this time, like really really.

Theres a couple of story that needs to be inked down before I go mental. _|_

Lets start with SA.

SA. What can I say about you. The original plan was you. But you have to screw it up this time round didnt you? I know, I screwed things badly last time, infact twice. But being away made me realise, that your the only one I thought of every night before I go to sleep. The best thing about what we had, is that we keep our relationship absolutely platonic. Something which I treasure most in this fast growing modernized society. 2008 was a good year for us. February 2009 was even better. But this time round, when Im serious, your running huh. I know, trust is hard to gain after what happened, but think about it, take a risk. Take a walk, it better to know the outcome of something rather than just figuring 'what could have happen'.

Since I came back, we met once. I tried to not fall for you, but its inevitable cause I fell for you at first glance. We talked, we had fun, we walked. Then suddenly one night you said, leave you alone. I dont get you. What I want you to know is that, Im willing to give us a chance. imyvm.
Let the bear be something that reminds you of me. Keep it safe, SA.

DEAR F.

You you you you you I fucking dont get you. I dont have much to say now but for the past month, I had the time of my life with you. You reminded me of the first love, everything about us is great but think about it. I can never be yours, i'll always be the third party. I should have stopped waaaaaaaaaaay back but thats my fault and I dont blame you.

But what happened on our last meeting was totally yours. _|_
Put yourself in my shoes.

1) No matter what, i'll always be the one waiting and never once I got an apology from you for being late.

2) 90% of our meet ups ends up with me being at your place, sending you home. And since we're at my area, I requested for you to do to that and no.

3) How does it feels when every time I turn to talk you and see you entertaining your phone. -.-

4) I let you entertain your phone and I walked in front looking for a place to sit and you accused me of leaving you behind. thaaaaaafuck!

5) When I keep quiet, and I dont wanna tell you my problem which is not fucking related to you, you get pissed off. thaaafuck!

6) You kuat merajok.

7) When I tried to make peace with you, you dont want to entertain me. When I gave up and take the cab home, your angry with me. What you want from me siaaaaaaaaaa. NBCB.

8) Your damn lokek with me, I dont know why.

9) I CANT BELIEVE THAT IM FALLING/FELLED FOR YOU.
FUCK AKU JADI LAKI BODOH.

CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEE.

FUCK THIS IS NOT HEALTHY SIAAAAAAAAAAA.

DEAR A

This one another attention seeking buto. fuck you.

----------------------------------------

Okay, fuck it.

On a side note.
One of my customer me asked me just now
'boy, you play tennis ah?'
Thaaaaaafuck. -.-

SATURDAY COME QUICK PLESE.
IM SEXCITED! ^^

RANDOM

2010-12-29T14:45:00.010+08:00

Bleargh.

Thats how my emotions looked like right now.

More about this later.

So yeah, on a happier note, I decided to write about my criteria when looking for a girl.

I had many chances to be in a relationship, but yeah, im not satisfied yet haha.

Cause someone once told me, im choosy. HAHA, lets go.

Criteria (s) to be my girlfriend.

1) You must not be taller than me. ( 176 and below )

2) You must have long hair, which curls down the bottom. Actually nah, long hair is fine enough.

3) You must be fairer than me, (FOR SURE), it'll be a plus point if your fair. Like very very fair.

4) You must have a cute personality.

5) Must not be too independent, cause its nice to be needed by someone.

6) Must be caring cause I like to manje2. HAHA!

7) Must trust me and dont doubt me like everytime.

8) MUST NOT BE INSECURED.

So, am I choosy? I dont think so.

Back to the top.

Emotions = Confused.

WHY?

Lets just say, I dont know what I want.

Thats the case since im young, fickle minded.

Another big problem of mine, apart from my huge ego.

Okay heres a story.

Once upon a time, there is this sailor. So yeah, this sailor have to sail for a period of one year. During this time, the sailor feels very lonely cause he dont have much company and that got him thinking about what he wanted to do for his life once hes back home. He planned out many awesome stuffs to do, for example, getting a girl and settling down, change himself to be a better person and not like how he used to be. He thought that he could do it, he thought that he have the willpower and strentgh to do it, but turns one he doesn't.

WHY? THIS IS WHY.

This sailor, once hes back, he got off to a very slow start. And so he thought, he could do this. Just one. But then one by one, they kept on popping out, spoiling him with the luxury of choosing and choosing. That seems great, but truth is, it doesn't. All he wanted is SA, but SA is like so far away in a sense that SA is afraid of him. So yeah, he turned to the rest, and ended up sort of falling for the other(s). This sailor is in a confuse state of mind, and its really eating up his soul from the inside cause deep down, he knows what he wants, just one.

Anyw, this story is fictional. (:

BACK FROM THE DEAD

2010-12-25T19:31:00.006+08:00

okay bye!

BYE BYE

2010-02-06T12:46:00.004+08:00

Okay goodbye.
A sailor life belongs at sea.
Not here.
My life ends at 7.30pm later.
My life as a dog starts.
Haiya.
Im so gonna miss everyone. ( you guys/girls know who you are )
And I will make full use of these 10 months.
I'll forget you.
Watch me.
Cause you cant rock like I do.

PLEASE

2010-02-05T02:31:00.003+08:00

Dear god
Take anything from me.
But please.
Let me meet her tomorrow.
IM DESPERATE.
:(

Woke up in the evening feeling like P.Diddy.

2010-02-03T23:40:00.012+08:00

Firstly, thank you for the greaaaaat night yesterday.
Im satisfied.
Huahuahua, ILY (:
You know who you are.

And so, I reached home at 8.30 in the morning.
Slept until 4.30 when I was then woken up by a call. ( CB )

Caller : Hakim, this is varum bla bla bla from NOL.

Me : ah.

Caller : Bla bla bla ship bla bla bla 6th febuary bla bla bla.

Me : ah ( still in a daze )

Caller : bla bla bla bla report saturday bla bla bla.

Me : ah k bye.

After the call ended, it took me quite a while to digest all the information.
Then it struck me, haha.
Im going ship on the 6th of feb. Not 20th.
Im shocked bodoh.

So yeah, I will be sailing on mv TIGER RIVER on the 6th of feb.
There goes another 10 months of my life and the rest of my 2010.
Haiya. Goolged up on the ship.
And so its quite small, just 120m in length.
I like this one.

I hate my previous ship, which is 300 m in length and imagine, you have to sweep/mop/scrub the whole 300m of it.
And thats only for one side, meaning total is 600m.
FML. BIG TIME.
I hope this ship will take me somewhere great ah.
Please please please.
Prev ship have brought me to
OMAN, EGYPT, SAUDI ARABIA, JORDAN, DUBAI, BAHRAIN, CHINA AND HONGKONG. Hurhur, I cant wait to see the pirates of somalia again. IMY. (:
Oh and someone please remind me to upload pics of my previous ship on fb.
Thanking you.

I have thursday and friday left.
Gotta make full use of it.
Hmm.
How?

Oh wells, lets sidetrack a bit yeah.
Another ex of mine from the December 2007 sent me this like a few days ago.
Should be on Saturday.
I think.

'' I didnt know you made a great impact towards girls, alot of girls infact..I dont know why i am sms-ing you right now but I just wanna say im not like others hakim. I dont want to be fooled with..but when i was with you last 2 years, it felt so real for me. and until now its hard to forget the memories. Do you know how hard it is to forget? It hurts. But now I know all the words from your mouth a just sweet words. I dont know who NNAJ is but I know you really love her. I just wanna say this cause I've been keeping all this feelings. "

LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING BACK IF YOUR READING THIS.

YOUR FULL OF BULLSHIT.
IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN
YOU HURT ME.
MAY KARMA BITE YOUR ASS.
SOON.
_|_
BYE
PLEASE AND THANKYOU. (:

The reason is because she sent me this today

" the reason i didnt contact you is because i choose my bf over you. But then he broke my heart again..over and over again..im sorry hakim..you dont have to reply anyways..im leaving him. and i wanna be alone k.... "

Stop acting this way.
Stop asking for sympathy from me.
When you have problems, you come to me.
I dont know why I was so dumb to be there for you each time it happens.
And after a while, you'll go missing.
And you just have this fucking habit of randomly appearing in my life.
I should have just written you off like the others.

But let me tell you something.
And this is honest.
It was real for me too.
until now.

On a happier note.

Meeting my beloved scandal again tomorrow.
Hehhs :P

When I was 15 I had my first love,
There was nobody that compared to my baby
And nobody came between us,
No-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy
Oh I was star-struck,
She woke me up daily, don’t need no Starbucks.
She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street
And at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing coz she was so amazing
And now my heart is breaking

Sometimes, I love my sea life cause of this.
Running.
Running from all the problems.
I hope you'll never forget me.
First Love.

Alah Game Over.

2010-02-02T00:54:00.015+08:00

And so.

My chapter with S.
Already contains a fullstop
I is sadded.
Like seriously sad.
But Im a rolling stone.
Keep rolling kim.
Keep rolling.
Your loss.
My gain.

S : huh? ape u mepek?! sial uh! aku mintak tlg sia! kau ckp aku mcm2. kau memang dasar jantan sial uh!! kau mati uh atas kapal. kapal kau karam uh tgh laut.

Me : Lol okay. Bye.

S : mati bodo kau. tk pn bsk uh kau kene langgar lori. muke kau hancur uh!

Me : Yelah. Bye.

S : sia sia aku syg kau!!

Me : Da tkmo step.

S : jantan sial. kau pikir kau hensem, kau bole maen2 hati org suke ati kau? huh? bsk luse kakak kau ngandong ah kene rolling.

Me : Suke hati kau lah nak.

HENSEM TU TAK HENSEM LAH BROTHER (:

I turn right, you turn left. (:

Sunday.

Soccer match.
Captain.
Lose.
3-2
Scored one.
Dedicate to _.
Bad.
Example.
Cause.
Fight.
With.
Nigga.
Get.
Punched.
At.
Neck.
Elbowed.
At
Face.
Shoulder.
Is.
Injured.
Bravery.
But.
Regret.

Muke masai please.
Concentrate pat shoulder.
Hur hur :P

Currently waiting for R.
Ape nie.
Message halfway then stop.
Nvm, your still my goldfish.
Awww.
Thanks for being my friend.
And please, I want the rainbow thingy! :D

Be with someone who loves you not with someone you love.

I find this merepek.
Like seriously
If I go to the person who loves me, then why the person I love never come to me?
Then if the person I love comes to me, then why the person she love never go to her?
Cheebye, never ending cycle bodoh.
Bodoh sia the person who make up this phrase.
FUCK YOU.
BUT
I BELIEVE IN THIS

' Every ending is a new beginning. '
(:

Gambar 2008 please.

Lastly.
Announcement
Watch movie with me.
Santau.
Anyone?
Please? (:

This is random but I love this group on FB.
' I love to see chickies in kebaya '
and
Listen to this song!
lmfao - yes.

gay.

2010-02-01T13:57:00.009+08:00

PEREMPUAN SEMUA MACAM SOYAL.

But I miss moments like this :(
Emphasise on the word moments please.
Not the girl.
Sorry that I have to use these pictures.

and I hope I'll get positive results from the doctor later.
oh.
*prays hard*

Even the best fall down someday :(

2010-01-31T13:50:00.001+08:00

I dont have enought middle fingers to let you know how I feel.
_|_ x 1949875989580120185907589

:DDD

2010-01-30T17:13:00.000+08:00

sweet!
outing with the ex later.
whooohooolalalaa.
I am happy.

wow.

2010-01-27T01:23:00.000+08:00

Love my < $20 shoes.

Got this text message just now.

You want to treat me however you want to, apape luh eh. It just shows hw much you treasure this short friendship we had. Before whatever happens, i just want to tell you im happy tt i got to knw you. Cos in one way or another, you helped me move on from the ex. I dont know how you did it but you just did. Its nice knowing you and hopefully you and s get together ( THIS PART TK PERLU ) I wanna see you happy. and yeah, goodnight and take care. esp for the next 10 months.

Haiya, idk what to say sia.
I need time to think about everything.
I'll text you when im ready.
I know your reading this, be patient.

Ni lain story.

I dont know how to tell you what I feel.
Erm. The thing is, I just dont want you to be anonymous.
That is if your with me.
I want people to know you.
I dont care what they tell me.
But if i am proud of something
Or someone.
Hell yeah, im going to show it/her/him off to the world.
And yeah, I'll be proud if I got you.
Something like that.
So yeah, thats why I've been acting this way.
I have problems expressing my feelings.
k da thats all.

And sorry lah kepade org yang bukan manwhore.
I didnt know I was one.
Bitch.

LANCIAO AH, AKU SAD.

2010-01-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

SHIT HAPPENS.

Friday. 22/01/2010

These 3 lines will be remembered by me all the time.
And thats the only thing I can recall from friday. -.-

Girl : Do you still love me?
Boy : Yup I still do. Alot.
Girl : But I dont.

Ouch, that hurts.
Not.
Surprisingly, as hurting as it may seemed, it doesnt.
I mean, I thank god for this.
Atleast now, I have a clear mind.
I know what I have to do now.
But I have to admit, I will always love you.
Oh well, I'll just keep you at a tiny corner in my heart.
No matter how dusty you will be.
I'll always have a napkin ready.
Anytime you wanna re-appear back in my life.
Okay fine.
Corny.
Lame.
Who cares?
I still want to meet you before I go.
You have something which belongs to me.
I'll talk to you soon, N.
I hope.

Sunday 24/01/2010

Welcome back SM!
Im sorry that I made you merajok with me.
It wont happen again.
And oh.
Imy (:

Monday 25/01/2010

To Z.
I said sorry and you wouldnt accept it.
Hell yeah i was just joking about the irritating part.
But you still owe me an apology for saying I'll die at sea.
Too bad cause I was about to fetch you from work this week.

To S.
Perfect timing I must say.
Just as I was about to give you a chance, and give myself another chance at love.
This happens.
Oh well, I dont understand why is it so hard for you to tell me.
Unknown?
Kiss my ass I tell you.
I deserve to know.
And if your in my future, you expect to be anonymous?
Cause you afraid of rumours?
People telling me stories about you?
Let me say it again, I deserve to know.
I love you, means I trust you.
I trust you means we'll be okay.
Get that in your head.
Tsk.
Too bad.
I was falling for you.
Fast.
Like really really fast.

People come and go.

SIGH.

karma is such a bitch.
_|_ you karma.
If you are a person.
YOU DIE.
HAHAAAHA.

I miss times like this.
I wish.
I want.
To make another picture like this.
Btw, my face.
Stop it.

ahhh cheebye pukimak babi ayam goreng muke keparat sundalan babi tetek nenek kau nye datok aku swear pepek babi cheebye lanciao babi buto bapak monyet lagi hensem cheebye asshole. Okay I feel better. Not.

Tak referring to anyone ah.
Jangan nak terase please (:

Young And Dangerous

2010-01-22T18:19:00.000+08:00

Thats me in the middle there
Hakim Ho Nam.
Anyone interested to fill up the other four characters?
I know sam is.
Welcome to the club brother.
This is what depressed people do.
Fyi.

And to Dee, i think its time kau face to reality.
kau nye mexicano tkleh fight ngn aku.
serious shit.
tengok gambar atas. maut or what.
kau takecare dok, smlm bapak aku da bace comment kau.
Die panggil ot2 hongkong tron.
Nice knowing you as a friend. (:

Oh well, I should be getting ready now.
Haiya.

Psst.
I want to be there for you.
I want you to update me too, friend.
Please let me in.

Song for the moment - Salam sejahtera by Samudera.
k shuttup, dont say anything.

DOWN. DOWNER. DOWNEST. k mepek.

2010-01-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

Someone, anyone, just shove this down my throat please.
I need this, pronto.

Question of the day - why?
Answer of the day - Karma.

Everything was going on so well until the ending of today. 15 more mins to the next day to be exact.
To this brother of mine, why did you do all that without asking me first?
You think your helping but your not.
Fuck.
Seriously, im not angry at you for trying to help. But you know I dont want to find out the truth about this. People say I still have a chance, people kept on asking me to make the first move, but I dont want to.
I rather be confused about this than to find out the truth. Now your giving me hope by telling me the convo between you and her, but I dont want that. I told you before bro, no matter how much I love her, I wont do anything about it. Come on lah, back to reality. I will be away for 10 months, anything can happen. Eventhough aku realised all this while aku indirectly waiting for her. Tapi i dont want to get hurt. Aku fragile bodoh. If its fated, it'll happen naturally. Futhermore, its taboo for sailors to be in love.

But on a positive note, thanks for trying to help, but please, tell me about it first. Dont do things ikot suke hati kau ah.

How down can I get?
CB.

Tomorrow, friday.
Should be an outing with S but change of plans.
Its.....
Junkie day.
Anyone?

==================================

SM still not resolved.
Z still not resolved.
S getting back on track.
wth.
Im living in denial.

Anyway, I love my hair in this picture.
Dont click the picture to enlarge it.
Quality pekbum. (:

S dedicated this song to me yesterday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqJkA5aLUs4&feature=PlayList&p=0BC4B9899DFD3993&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=14

I think i know what you mean.
Tapi i sorry.
Fahamkan ah.
But
Sweet pe kau.
And thank you.
I'll try to learn the song on guitar okay.
Soon.

BEER > GIRLS?

2010-01-21T13:28:00.000+08:00

Totally agree with this.
Hahaha.
If only we can get married to beer and ciggs.
How great.
________________________________

Highlights from yesterday.

Had a small argument with SM.
Had a small fight with S.
Irritated Z.
One conclusion.
For all.
Not my fault.
Never.
Ever.
Bye.
Ego.
Hi.

_______________________________

Going out later.
Movie.
Pool.
_______?
Half shirt
Half pants.
Armani hair. ( Back to old school )
Blackbeads.
More beads.
Shades.
Slip on?
Birkenstock sandals?
Still trying to figure out how to match.
Booo.
This sucks.
Oh well, im a hanger.
Everything looks nice on me ;D

A sailor's everyday wear.

What now guys?

2010-01-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

Count how many guys are there in the above picture? 7.
FAMOUS 7
What now guys?

Our very first picture together
Year 2004.
What now guys?

Year 2007
07/07/07
Our BBQ day.
What now guys?

Year 2009.
What now guys?

Okay lets go.
Brothers for 6 years and couting.
Countless memories together, be it good or bad.
Fights here and there, problems everywhere.
We have gone through so much together, and so you guys think it will be the same with all our new clique?
I bet no, what we had was fucking epic.
You all agree with this deep down, even if you deny it.
What now guys?
I know as a captain, i've not done much to make things better.
Lets do it right this time.
Lets settle our differences.
Lets put our ego aside.
Lets put our girls aside.
Lets be the powerhouse we once were.
Its all for you guys to decide, whether FAMOUS 7 deserves a second chance as a group.
I'll be the first one to say that we do.
This may sound gay-ish but what the hell,
ILY GUYS.

Clockwise from the red guy.
IAN, QAIYUUM, SABRI, ANDREW, AMIR, MUHD HAKIM AND ME IN THE MIDDLE.

Think it through.
What now guys?
___________________________________________________________

and this is random, but I wanna be a Hongkong Gangster.
Young and dangerous.
check it out on youtube (:

oh well, outing with SM tomorrow(:
looking forward to it.

I AM A SAILOR, AND I SHOULDNT LOVE.

2010-01-19T16:21:00.001+08:00

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnahlah, musnah impian.
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidupku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku.
Bunkface - situasi.

Bang, someone shoot me after I finish with this post, please.

Its going to be a year in 3 months time since we broke up. I thought im strong, I thought I could move on easily. But I was wrong. I have dated 12 girls for the past 9months, but none of them managed to make me feel as happy when I was with you.
I know, its useless, cause I was looking for a you in them.
There you are, happily enjoying life and here am I, still reminiscing the past.
I admit, I do miss you, and I still love you, but nothing can be done anymore.
Someone told me to have ' hope, love and faith '
I have no hope.
I have love.
I have no faith.
But I want you back.
Its true what they say, nothing beats the first love.
I love you, NNAJ.
Happy 3years3months2days.
Damn, I deserve all this.
Karma sucks.
Big time.
oh well, FML.

On a side note, the person may not know this, but i hate people who have no originality.
Such a pity cause its too late to tell him now.
oh wells, I'll just have to improvise then.
_|_ you btw.

Even heaven feels like hell without you.
HAHAHA, PART NI AKU SUMPAH AKU BEDEK.
lol, just trying to cheer myself up?

THIS IS IT.

2009-09-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

BABY IM BACK (:

So hello there, lets go G-O go with my updates.
warning, this post is gonna be full of pictures :D

WEDNESDAY 23RD SEPTEMBER 2009

So wednesday was my tp day. and so, i failed. why? immediate failure. why? cause the fucking
got over it already ah, cause maybe, god wants me to pass next year with my car license too. (:

Next, outing with Nurisa (: Met her at pheonix around 4? and someone pakai baju same lahhh! nyahaha. Watched G-FORCE in 3D at CATHAY. She gotta be proud, cause shes the first person i watched a movie in 3D with. Same goes for me. hehhs :D
Went boat quay after that for chilling session, well, we talked alot. Only I know she know lah. hahaha. *pictures*

So yeah, sent her home and met sabri, ian and syek at yewtee for drinking session :D
DRINK DRANK DRUNK
We had loads of fun, hahahah. *winks winks*

THURSDAY, 24TH SEPTEMBER 2009.

Met Sakinah(:
Eat.
Shopping.
CHILLING SESSION.
She wants to patch up when im back. hahahaa.

Send her off to the bustop opposite FEP and met amir there.
Went to double 0 with him and liza.
saw many familiar faces.
too much things happened, lazy to elaborate.
Pictures can talk what.
ahahaha.

oh yahhh, met 3 girls in the club. wakaka :P

so yah, everything went well and me and amir went separate ways after that.
Me and liza went to chinatown while amir met iqbal at lucky plaza.

MIND THOSE KISSY KISSY PICS, IM DRUNK DAMMIT (:

so now, back to the real world.
im sailing off this saturday for a year, 7.30 am.
hahaha, GOODBYE SOCIAL LIFE, GONNA MISS YA.
K IM SLEEPY NOW.

ITS GOING TO BE A LONG LONG LONG TIME THEN I UPDATE AGAIN. HOPEFULLY MY SHIP GOT INTERNET CONNECTION (;

OH PEOPLE.
I'VE SHAVED MY HEAD.
HAHAHAHAHAA.

K BYE :D

HANGOVER.

2009-09-24T15:29:00.000+08:00

Okay go, lets keep it short and sweet first. Full update soon.

HIGHLIGHTS.

1st) I fail my bike tp, hahaha. immediate failure. (:

2nd) School results was okay, 2.8 GPA for this semester. Not bad for someone who skipped year 2 and straight to year 3 (:

3rd) Outing with Nurisa was a blast. Had a good time ah. (:

4th) Night out, drinking with bros was blast-ier. Drink Drank Drunk.

5th) Going out with S today and Double O tonight with bros and L. :DDDDD

6th) Shaving my hair this friday (:

7th) Those spammers, thanks for tagging. parapapapa, im loving it (:

8th) Im already late now, S, wait for me ah. Hehhs (:

*note to self*
rmbr to eat before i go out.
kkkkk.

MORE PICTURES TMRW.

eh shit sia, i still havent link people. how ah? hahahahaa.

ps ; i love my life. serious. (:

TUESDAY?

2009-09-22T18:42:00.001+08:00

COUNTDOWN

1 DAY TO MY BIKE TP, 23RD SEPTEMBER (:

4DAYS TO ME CIAO-ING. (:

THUMBS UP MAN :D

PLANS FOR THE WEEK

WEDNESDAY - BIKE TP, GO OUT WITH N, NIGHT OUT WITH BROS. (:
THURSDAY- OUTING WITH S AND DOUBLE O WITH BROS (:
FRIDAY- SLOT STILL AVAILABLE.
HAHAAHA. NOW I NEED TO SLOT IN A, NI, AND S. HMMMMMMMS. HOW EH? (:

and wish me luck please please for my tp tmrw! yay d=)

oh wells, i'll update later kay.

ps ; i miss my girls :P

BOOM BOOM POW AH.

2009-09-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

HARLOW, HELLO, HEYLO, HIGLOW, PEOPLE (:

Lets start off with my post for today, but mind you, i think its gonna be a long one, so if dont want to read, then dont ah. hahahaha. :P

Okay, basically first day of raya is not as bad as i expected since mua said tkde mood pe.
before anything, i realised that this year raye date is very cool lahh.
20.09.2009. COOL KAN PEOPLE? HAHAAAH.

So yah, after me balek from prayers, we do the usual stuff people do laah on pagi raye. maaf2 etc.
i almost cried laah, haha, cause bnyk saketkan hati mak, bapak, nenek, kakak dan adek. LOL.

so yah, this is my family picture lah. rambot lom setting lagi ye (:

OFF TO SLEEP AND WOKE UP AT 2. *INTERVAL*

Then saye siap2, and setting2 hair to go to my other nenek house at pasir ris (:

OH YAH, NI MCM CHEEBYE, THIS IS MY LAST YEAR NYE BAJU KURUNG. HAHAHA

Reached already, i feel so happy lah. cause now when my makciks2 ask
' hakim bile nak belayar?'
i can safely say
'i belayar on the 26th of september ahhhh (: '
and i dont need to tell them like in how many months time whatever shit ahhh.
soooooo, i think right, i let the pictures do the talking sudahh lah ehh ((:

the last pic is my family with my other nenek ah (:

Okay people, lets sidetrack a little bit k.
Recently, my ex, just got attached laah. i dont care bout it, but the fucked up thing is that the now bf ( a yp i think ) send me a message thru fb.

'aku tau kau ex nabila.skrg aku dah dgn dier. aku tau friendster kau maseh ade gmbr kau ngan die. skrg ni aku bual gentle,taknak carik gadoh kepe,kau delete gmbr die dari friendster kau,aku tau kau tak pakai friendster lagi,but still aku tknk tgk gmbr die pat profile kau. okay? aku nak kau delete asap. '

HAHAA. WTF SIA. COME ON PEOPLE, TELL ME, WHO STILL USE FRIENDSTER RIGHTT?? I THINK NOW FRIENDSTER IS CONTROLLED BY THE MATS AND MINAH WHATT. HAIYO, SERIOUSLY AH DUDE, ZAMAN BILE NAK PAKAI FRIENDSTER LAGI. SO THEN, I REPLY LAHH.

kalau aku tknk pulak. ape kau nak buat? nak bikin aku? sini ah dtg SEGAR kay. Minah kau pon tau mane aku tinggal, senang2 tanye die sudah. aku pon bobual care baik skrg, yg penting aku tk ingt password friendster smue, zaman da lalu ah joy nak pakai friendster. kau tknk tengok gambar die, jgn gi profile aku ah. eh senang ckp ah, kite tkya main bobual pat sini ah k. kau nak, kau call / msg aku at 94244862 sudah ah. prangai tkmo YP ah (((:

HAHA, I LAUGED SIA READING MY REPLY, MAYBE IM THE ONE YG MCM YP BUT WTH AH, I FIND IT FUNNY. WAKAKA. SO YAH, HE STILL HAVENT REPLY, AND TK MESSAGE/CALL. AND THE BEST PART, SAW HIM THE OTHER DAY, MEMBER LOOK AT ME *HIDE HIDE LOOK AH* AND WHEN I LOOKED AT HIM, HE LOOK DOWN STRAIGHTAWAY. COME ON AH, BE BRAVE PLEASEEEEEEEEEE. NYAHAHA.
AND DUDE, IF YOUR READING THIS, I JUST HAVE THIS FUCKING URGE TO PISS YOU OFF, SO LOOK DOWN. NYAHAHAHA.
AND IM NOT YOUR FUCKING DOG.

HAHAHAHAHAH. DUDE, PEACE LAH EHHH (:
SIAK AH HAKIM, LOVE TO CARIK PASAL ONLY (:

so people, i need your opinion, should i tell him bout my blog so that he can see this?

HELP ME DECIDE PEEPS. HAHAHAH :D

AND OHHHH, RMBR I SAID I THINK IM IN LOVE WITH THIS TODDLER? THATS HER BELOW. AWWWWWWWWWWW :P

OI, FOR THOSE PICTURES YANG TK CLEAR RIGHT, PLEASEEEEE CLICK ON IT AH, THEN CAN SEE MY FACE CLEARLY. HUAHAUHAUA (:

Okay, i think i did alot of sins already lah.
haha. so goodbye people, hope you had a good time reading my blog ya :DD
and i still havent figured out how to spend my time with all those people in 3 days. haishyo. help me lahhhhh! grrrrrrr.

ps ; i love my mom (:

VERY TIRED PLEASE.

2009-09-20T23:31:00.001+08:00

OKAY LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, I, ABDUL HAKIM BIN MOKHTAR IS/AM OFFICIALLY VERY TIRED RIGHT NOW AND NOW SO YAH, DENGAR BETOL BETOL SEMUE ORANG ORANG KAMPONG, I'LL UPDATE EVERYTHING TMRW INCLUDING PICTURES AHHHH (: HAHAHA. OUH YA, I THINK IM IN LOVE WITH THIS TODDLER. (PICTURES WITH HER TMRW) HAHAHAHAHAHA K BYE :D

and im happy, cause im going kubor tmrw. yay yay yay ahhh.

ps ; i got 3 fucking days to spend time with my bros, and 5 other people A, S, NI, N, AND S. ohh and not forgetting mua familia ((:
how eh how how ehhhh? any ideas/suggestions, silekan tag.
thank you.
saturday will be the day.

WOW, NEW BLOG.

2009-09-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

hahaha, idk why, but i think i just wanna make a blog. LOL.
hmmmmms. okay, tmrw is hari raya. haiyo, totally no mood for it lahhhhh.
lets think of few possible reasons for this
*scratch head ALOT ALOT*
ahhhhhhh!

1 ) For the first time since primary 6 or 6 years, im single during raya. -.-
2 ) Maybe cause im sailing off soon, fucking soon lah which is 26th september 2009.
3 ) Cause i takde baju kurung this year? :'(
4 ) MAYBE ITS JUST THE FIRST REASON.

HAHAHA.

damn, this is depressing sia. i think i need a smoke now.
*huff puff*
okay, i think i feel much better.
lol
k lah k lah.
talked too much crap already for my first ever post.

SO PEOPLE, SELAMAT HARI RAYA LAH EHHH (:
IF I DID SAKETKAN YOUR HATI OR WHATSOEVER, I THINK YOU SHOULD FORGIVE ME LAH. IF YOU DONT WANT, NVERMIND, GOT NEXT YEAR WHAT ((:

*i hope all the girls i know/knew/cheated on (?) is reading this now, save my message sia*

k bye.
ps ; i never go geylang this year and im proud of it :D

WAKALA WAKALA MOOLAHHH

2009-09-19T22:17:00.001+08:00

TESTING LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. EH.

gambar oi .

FUCK OFF.