We have problems.
Everyday.
Everytime
But.

Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out
Burn like crashing cars
I'll never get over you
Cause you are so
beautiful

Look at the picture above.
Yeah, thats the face of my heart. Problems are never ending this days huh.
Karma really got me this time, like really really.

Theres a couple of story that needs to be inked down before I go mental. _|_

Lets start with SA.

SA. What can I say about you. The original plan was you. But you have to screw it up this time round didnt you? I know, I screwed things badly last time, infact twice. But being away made me realise, that your the only one I thought of every night before I go to sleep. The best thing about what we had, is that we keep our relationship absolutely platonic. Something which I treasure most in this fast growing modernized society. 2008 was a good year for us. February 2009 was even better. But this time round, when Im serious, your running huh. I know, trust is hard to gain after what happened, but think about it, take a risk. Take a walk, it better to know the outcome of something rather than just figuring 'what could have happen'.

Since I came back, we met once. I tried to not fall for you, but its inevitable cause I fell for you at first glance. We talked, we had fun, we walked. Then suddenly one night you said, leave you alone. I dont get you. What I want you to know is that, Im willing to give us a chance. imyvm.
Let the bear be something that reminds you of me. Keep it safe, SA.

DEAR F.

You you you you you I fucking dont get you. I dont have much to say now but for the past month, I had the time of my life with you. You reminded me of the first love, everything about us is great but think about it. I can never be yours, i'll always be the third party. I should have stopped waaaaaaaaaaay back but thats my fault and I dont blame you.

But what happened on our last meeting was totally yours. _|_
Put yourself in my shoes.

1) No matter what, i'll always be the one waiting and never once I got an apology from you for being late.

2) 90% of our meet ups ends up with me being at your place, sending you home. And since we're at my area, I requested for you to do to that and no.

3) How does it feels when every time I turn to talk you and see you entertaining your phone. -.-

4) I let you entertain your phone and I walked in front looking for a place to sit and you accused me of leaving you behind. thaaaaaafuck!

5) When I keep quiet, and I dont wanna tell you my problem which is not fucking related to you, you get pissed off. thaaafuck!

6) You kuat merajok.

7) When I tried to make peace with you, you dont want to entertain me. When I gave up and take the cab home, your angry with me. What you want from me siaaaaaaaaaa. NBCB.

8) Your damn lokek with me, I dont know why.

9) I CANT BELIEVE THAT IM FALLING/FELLED FOR YOU.
FUCK AKU JADI LAKI BODOH.

CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEE.

FUCK THIS IS NOT HEALTHY SIAAAAAAAAAAA.



DEAR A

This one another attention seeking buto. fuck you.


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Okay, fuck it.

On a side note.
One of my customer me asked me just now
'boy, you play tennis ah?'
Thaaaaaafuck. -.-

SATURDAY COME QUICK PLESE.
IM SEXCITED! ^^

Bleargh.

Thats how my emotions looked like right now.

More about this later.

So yeah, on a happier note, I decided to write about my criteria when looking for a girl.

I had many chances to be in a relationship, but yeah, im not satisfied yet haha.

Cause someone once told me, im choosy. HAHA, lets go.

Criteria (s) to be my girlfriend.

1) You must not be taller than me. ( 176 and below )

2) You must have long hair, which curls down the bottom. Actually nah, long hair is fine enough.

3) You must be fairer than me, (FOR SURE), it'll be a plus point if your fair. Like very very fair.

4) You must have a cute personality.

5) Must not be too independent, cause its nice to be needed by someone.

6) Must be caring cause I like to manje2. HAHA!

7) Must trust me and dont doubt me like everytime.

8) MUST NOT BE INSECURED.

So, am I choosy? I dont think so.

Back to the top.

Emotions = Confused.

WHY?

Lets just say, I dont know what I want.

Thats the case since im young, fickle minded.

Another big problem of mine, apart from my huge ego.

Okay heres a story.

Once upon a time, there is this sailor. So yeah, this sailor have to sail for a period of one year. During this time, the sailor feels very lonely cause he dont have much company and that got him thinking about what he wanted to do for his life once hes back home. He planned out many awesome stuffs to do, for example, getting a girl and settling down, change himself to be a better person and not like how he used to be. He thought that he could do it, he thought that he have the willpower and strentgh to do it, but turns one he doesn't.

WHY? THIS IS WHY.

This sailor, once hes back, he got off to a very slow start. And so he thought, he could do this. Just one. But then one by one, they kept on popping out, spoiling him with the luxury of choosing and choosing. That seems great, but truth is, it doesn't. All he wanted is SA, but SA is like so far away in a sense that SA is afraid of him. So yeah, he turned to the rest, and ended up sort of falling for the other(s). This sailor is in a confuse state of mind, and its really eating up his soul from the inside cause deep down, he knows what he wants, just one.

Anyw, this story is fictional. (:

okay bye!

Okay goodbye.
A sailor life belongs at sea.
Not here.
My life ends at 7.30pm later.
My life as a dog starts.
Haiya.
Im so gonna miss everyone. ( you guys/girls know who you are )
And I will make full use of these 10 months.
I'll forget you.
Watch me.
Cause you cant rock like I do.

Firstly, thank you for the greaaaaat night yesterday.
Im satisfied.
Huahuahua, ILY (:
You know who you are.

My chapter with S.
Already contains a fullstop
I is sadded.
Like seriously sad.
But Im a rolling stone.
Keep rolling kim.
Keep rolling.
Your loss.
My gain.


S : huh? ape u mepek?! sial uh! aku mintak tlg sia! kau ckp aku mcm2. kau memang dasar jantan sial uh!! kau mati uh atas kapal. kapal kau karam uh tgh laut.

Me : Lol okay. Bye.

S : mati bodo kau. tk pn bsk uh kau kene langgar lori. muke kau hancur uh!

Me : Yelah. Bye.

S : sia sia aku syg kau!!

Me : Da tkmo step.

S : jantan sial. kau pikir kau hensem, kau bole maen2 hati org suke ati kau? huh? bsk luse kakak kau ngandong ah kene rolling.

Me : Suke hati kau lah nak.


This is random but I love this group on FB.
' I love to see chickies in kebaya '
and
Listen to this song!
lmfao - yes.

Love my < $20 shoes.

ahhh cheebye pukimak babi ayam goreng muke keparat sundalan babi tetek nenek kau nye datok aku swear pepek babi cheebye lanciao babi buto bapak monyet lagi hensem cheebye asshole. Okay I feel better. Not.

Tak referring to anyone ah.
Jangan nak terase please (:

Thats me in the middle there
Hakim Ho Nam.
Anyone interested to fill up the other four characters?
I know sam is.
Welcome to the club brother.
This is what depressed people do.
Fyi.

And to Dee, i think its time kau face to reality.
kau nye mexicano tkleh fight ngn aku.
serious shit.
tengok gambar atas. maut or what.
kau takecare dok, smlm bapak aku da bace comment kau.
Die panggil ot2 hongkong tron.
Nice knowing you as a friend. (:


Oh well, I should be getting ready now.
Haiya.


Psst.
I want to be there for you.
I want you to update me too, friend.
Please let me in.


Song for the moment - Salam sejahtera by Samudera.
k shuttup, dont say anything.

Someone, anyone, just shove this down my throat please.
I need this, pronto.

Question of the day - why?
Answer of the day - Karma.


Everything was going on so well until the ending of today. 15 more mins to the next day to be exact.
To this brother of mine, why did you do all that without asking me first?
You think your helping but your not.
Fuck.
Seriously, im not angry at you for trying to help. But you know I dont want to find out the truth about this. People say I still have a chance, people kept on asking me to make the first move, but I dont want to.
I rather be confused about this than to find out the truth. Now your giving me hope by telling me the convo between you and her, but I dont want that. I told you before bro, no matter how much I love her, I wont do anything about it. Come on lah, back to reality. I will be away for 10 months, anything can happen. Eventhough aku realised all this while aku indirectly waiting for her. Tapi i dont want to get hurt. Aku fragile bodoh. If its fated, it'll happen naturally. Futhermore, its taboo for sailors to be in love.

But on a positive note, thanks for trying to help, but please, tell me about it first. Dont do things ikot suke hati kau ah.

How down can I get?
CB.

Tomorrow, friday.
Should be an outing with S but change of plans.
Its.....
Junkie day.
Anyone?

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SM still not resolved.
Z still not resolved.
S getting back on track.
wth.
Im living in denial.





Anyway, I love my hair in this picture.
Dont click the picture to enlarge it.
Quality pekbum. (:

S dedicated this song to me yesterday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqJkA5aLUs4&feature=PlayList&p=0BC4B9899DFD3993&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=14

I think i know what you mean.
Tapi i sorry.
Fahamkan ah.
But
Sweet pe kau.
And thank you.
I'll try to learn the song on guitar okay.
Soon.

Totally agree with this.
Hahaha.
If only we can get married to beer and ciggs.
How great.
________________________________

Highlights from yesterday.

Had a small argument with SM.
Had a small fight with S.
Irritated Z.
One conclusion.
For all.
Not my fault.
Never.
Ever.
Bye.
Ego.
Hi.

_______________________________

Going out later.
Movie.
Pool.
_______?
Half shirt
Half pants.
Armani hair. ( Back to old school )
Blackbeads.
More beads.
Shades.
Slip on?
Birkenstock sandals?
Still trying to figure out how to match.
Booo.
This sucks.
Oh well, im a hanger.
Everything looks nice on me ;D




A sailor's everyday wear.

Count how many guys are there in the above picture? 7.
FAMOUS 7
What now guys?




Our very first picture together
Year 2004.
What now guys?



Year 2007
07/07/07
Our BBQ day.
What now guys?



Year 2009.
What now guys?

Okay lets go.
Brothers for 6 years and couting.
Countless memories together, be it good or bad.
Fights here and there, problems everywhere.
We have gone through so much together, and so you guys think it will be the same with all our new clique?
I bet no, what we had was fucking epic.
You all agree with this deep down, even if you deny it.
What now guys?
I know as a captain, i've not done much to make things better.
Lets do it right this time.
Lets settle our differences.
Lets put our ego aside.
Lets put our girls aside.
Lets be the powerhouse we once were.
Its all for you guys to decide, whether FAMOUS 7 deserves a second chance as a group.
I'll be the first one to say that we do.
This may sound gay-ish but what the hell,
ILY GUYS.



Clockwise from the red guy.
IAN, QAIYUUM, SABRI, ANDREW, AMIR, MUHD HAKIM AND ME IN THE MIDDLE.

Think it through.
What now guys?
___________________________________________________________

and this is random, but I wanna be a Hongkong Gangster.
Young and dangerous.
check it out on youtube (:

oh well, outing with SM tomorrow(:
looking forward to it.

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnahlah, musnah impian.
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidupku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku.
Bunkface - situasi.



Bang, someone shoot me after I finish with this post, please.

Its going to be a year in 3 months time since we broke up. I thought im strong, I thought I could move on easily. But I was wrong. I have dated 12 girls for the past 9months, but none of them managed to make me feel as happy when I was with you.
I know, its useless, cause I was looking for a you in them.
There you are, happily enjoying life and here am I, still reminiscing the past.
I admit, I do miss you, and I still love you, but nothing can be done anymore.
Someone told me to have ' hope, love and faith '
I have no hope.
I have love.
I have no faith.
But I want you back.
Its true what they say, nothing beats the first love.
I love you, NNAJ.
Happy 3years3months2days.
Damn, I deserve all this.
Karma sucks.
Big time.
oh well, FML.

On a side note, the person may not know this, but i hate people who have no originality.
Such a pity cause its too late to tell him now.
oh wells, I'll just have to improvise then.
_|_ you btw.






Even heaven feels like hell without you.
HAHAHA, PART NI AKU SUMPAH AKU BEDEK.
lol, just trying to cheer myself up?

BABY IM BACK (:



So hello there, lets go G-O go with my updates.
warning, this post is gonna be full of pictures :D

So yeah, sent her home and met sabri, ian and syek at yewtee for drinking session :D
DRINK DRANK DRUNK
We had loads of fun, hahahah. *winks winks*





Met Sakinah(:
Eat.
Shopping.
CHILLING SESSION.
She wants to patch up when im back. hahahaa.




Send her off to the bustop opposite FEP and met amir there.
Went to double 0 with him and liza.
saw many familiar faces.
too much things happened, lazy to elaborate.
Pictures can talk what.
ahahaha.





oh yahhh, met 3 girls in the club. wakaka :P











so yah, everything went well and me and amir went separate ways after that.
Me and liza went to chinatown while amir met iqbal at lucky plaza.

MIND THOSE KISSY KISSY PICS, IM DRUNK DAMMIT (:

so now, back to the real world.
im sailing off this saturday for a year, 7.30 am.
hahaha, GOODBYE SOCIAL LIFE, GONNA MISS YA.
K IM SLEEPY NOW.

ITS GOING TO BE A LONG LONG LONG TIME THEN I UPDATE AGAIN. HOPEFULLY MY SHIP GOT INTERNET CONNECTION (;


OH PEOPLE.
I'VE SHAVED MY HEAD.
HAHAHAHAHAA.






K BYE :D